My family has experienced another loss. This one is a tragedy and it is heartbreaking.
On Sunday, May 31st, 2009, my daughter's horse riding instructor was killed in a car accident. Her name was Mindy and she was 35. She died instantly.
It's hard to put into words how I am feeling right now. There are so many emotions. However, the overpowering emotion is that of feeling pain for my child's pain. Lil Miss is heartbroken. I want nothing more than to take her pain away.
Mindy's mother told me one time Lil Miss was Mindy's favorite student. Lil Miss adored Mindy and she tells me all the time how she wants to be like Mindy when she grows up. She wants to teach kids how to ride horses, like Mindy does.
What's worse, we didn't find out about Mindy's death until we showed up at the ranch for Lil Miss's lessons. No one was there, except one girl riding her horse she boards there. I don't know why we weren't called last week. Maybe we were. My house phone doesn't work half the time, but Mindy always called me on my cell anyway. Maybe no one could find the number. I'm not sure. We missed the funeral.
It feels heavy in our home today. It feels dark, even with the sun coming through the windows.
I have so many thoughts. I can't even organize them into sentences. I can't even think of a word to describe how I feel. Sad doesn't seem to cover it. Heartbroken doesn't cover it either. I want to take my baby's pain away. And on top of that, I feel Mindy's loss and am grieving for her. I'm grieving for Keli. I feel sad for Keli's husband and son and I feel sad for Mindy's mom, Linda. I know Linda must be a mess.
Mindy gave something to my daughter that will be there forever. Mindy will always be with us, whenever Lil Miss rides a horse.
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