Here's the thing about quitting this fat thing. It's like quitting smoking. It's hard. It's hard to break that processed food addiction. It's hard to get off my fat ass and get a move on it with exercise. And because it's so hard to motivate myself, I've made myself accountable to Jess and Kim. I didn't quit smoking on my own and I'm thinking I can't quit fat on my own. I reached out and now I have people who are willing to guide me through. And that is awesome.
I'm going in easy. I'm in my first week of it and Jess has me easing in. I'm not changing my eating habits (can I skip the word diet?!) yet. So far, I've just done a little something each day. Sunday, I went to the gym where Kim showed me the exercises and the equipment. Monday I did squats (hello, thighs!). Tuesday I did a bike ride. Which I dreaded and hated and wanted to beat up Jess. But once it was over, it was over. Today was side laterals with weights. I don't have weights so I used these:
Meet Bob and Ed.
Like quitting smoking, this is a commitment and it is going to have to be a life commitment. And that is scary. But I have to do it. I'm not even doing this for my kids....though I do want to be a good example to them. Let's face it: no parent wants their kid to be the fat kid (I wish Husband would listen to me about this!). This is for me because I am tired of being ashamed of the way I look in pictures. It's sad when a mom doesn't want to be in pictures with her kids because she hates how she looks. Or Mom uses the kid as a fat shield: "stand in front of me to block my fat."
For those of you who have been with me this year, you know I'm tired of being unhappy and I am ready to do something about it. So far, I think I'm doing pretty well. My marriage is a lot better, my kids and I are reconnecting and I've found something other than husband and kids to fulfill me and now.....now it's time to do something about my body. Am I taking on too much? Changing too quickly? I don't know. Maybe. But this is the step I feel I need to take right now, so I'm taking it. Wish me luck and junk.
You can do it! But you're right - it's a major life change, not just a diet. I have the world's crappiest eating habits, and I am VERY lucky to not be overweight. (Good genes, I guess.) But I've noticed lately that Charlie wants to eat everything we eat. This means that it's time for us to put down the ice cream, the Dr. Pepper, the fried chicken, etc. Because I seriously don't want him eating the crap that we're addicted to. I'm also tired of the way bad food makes me feel. Just ugh. All the time, ugh.
ReplyDeleteRead Skinny Bitch. It's a great kick in the ass. And watch Food, Inc. and read some Michael Pollan. There are many, many reasons to change the way you eat. Try to make small changes. Take on one addiction or one meal at a time and focus on making that better. When you've conquered that one, move on to the next.
You can do it, my friend. I believe in you. I've gotten better but I need to work at this, too - I've been making an active effort with this pregnancy.
Oooo I really like your idea of improving one meal at a time. That seems more doable than just saying "complete overhaul of every meal we eat." I think I shall start with our suppers. :-D Thanks Les!!
ReplyDeleteI'm scared to watch Food, Inc.
Good luck with your changes as well! We can do this! And thanks for your encouragement! I need all the support I can get!