Bring on 2012!

Today's challenge is "highs and lows of the past year." This is an excellent end-of-the-year blog post. I'm just gonna go in order of when things happened, not in order of how awesome or how unawesome these things were.

High: Auburn wins the BCS National Championship, beating the Oregon Ducks and completing a perfect 14-0 season. The best part of this? The BCS National Championship was played in Glendale, Az! So, for about a week, my home was here with me! WAR DAMN EAGLE!

My Uncle, my Aunt, my cousin and his wife flew out for the game, so we met up with them before the game. I think I have the two cutest Auburn fans in the entire world!

I rolled my mesquite tree, like Toomer's Oaks.  I think this is a gorgeous picture, don't you? 

 Low: losing a good friend because I said something I probably shouldn't have to my husband who then went and repeated to said friend. Why, I have no idea. I know some of you are like "oh, get over it already!" But since the guy was a good friend of mine and now is hubby's BFF, it's hard to just "get over it." Also, I feel like I really have to censor myself around my husband now...cause no telling what he'll be off saying next. And trust me, this was not the only time he repeated something I told him in confidence.

High: Husband bought his motorcycle. We are now are two vehicle family. This has given me a freedom I hadn't quite known in the previous years of our marriage with only one car between us in a family of 4.

if you look closely, you can see my totally awesome pink shorts in the chrome or whatever it's called. 

Low: Husband bought his motorcycle. It's hard to explain. Plus, I don't enjoy riding it. So it's just one more thing we don't do together. I'm not interested in the "biker" lifestyle. And I'm sick of pretending like I am to make him happy. So I just don't anymore.

High: I made some really awesome friends this year. Some are around here. Some I've never met. (thank you, interwebz!) I really don't know what I would have done this year without them. 

High: The kids and I going to Alabama for the entire summer! I feel so incredibly lucky to have been able to spend 2.5 months at home with my family! It got intense sometimes, but for the most part, it was awesome! 

Low: telling my husband I wanted my time in Alabama to be considered a break from each other. Guess that's why he didn't call the kids one time over the summer? Or check to see if we needed money?

Low: Coming back from Alabama. I should have stayed there. 

High: having an amazing set of friends who have uplifted me and encouraged me and supported me these past few months as I have battled some major depression and anxiety. They have helped me by taking my daughter to school, keeping me company, paying me to keep them company, and helping me to clean and organize my house and not judging me for having such a craptastic mess in my house. (depression does some scary, crazy things.)

Low: Our financial situation is totally fucked. 

This year hasn't been a great year. But I know I've gone through worse. And I know I'll survive this. I'm looking forward to 2012. I'm really hoping that's when I'll finally cowgirl the fuck up and do what I gotta do to achieve the life I want to live. I'm really tired of allowing people to hold me back, especially myself. I'm ready to let go of my fear of failing. If I fail at one thing, I'll just try another thing until I get it right. Cause you know what? I will get it right eventually. I might need meds to help me, but I am so gonna do this! Bring it!