Day 3. Your Views on Alcohol and Drugs.
I like to drink. A little vino, a little beer, a little Jack. Not at the same time. I don't use drugs. My views on alcohol and drug use basically comes down to whatever floats your boat.
However, it is the abuse of alcohol and drugs that bothers me. I am the daughter of a drug addict/alcoholic. My biological mom was a big user. To me, drug addicts and alcoholics are inherently selfish people, even while sober and clean. The world revolves around them, their problems, their emotions and their lack of ability to deal with them. Everything happens to them. This is, again, my own personal experience and is not to generalize a population of people with the disease.
I have no compassionate understanding for it. We all face troubles in our lives and we all make choices. Your choice to drown your troubles in your addiction, to use and abuse drugs is distinctly your choice. No one makes you do it. No one tells you you can't ask for help in other, healthy ways. No one pours the booze down your throat or puts the drugs into your system. You do that yourself. Nope, I have no compassion for this choice you make. While you're so busy drowning your troubles, everyone who loves you has to watch. And every time you do it, you hurt them. You neglect them. You destroy them the same as you destroy yourself. To me, it is always your choice. It's a choice you choose over the people who love you and want to help you. You choose yourself over them. And because this is the case, even after you are clean or sober or whatever, everything still revolves around your use, or your not use.
Maybe it's selfish of me to feel this way. And if it is, I guess I have some serious issues too. Maybe I'm just bitter. Maybe, because of my childhood, I still view this in a very childlike way. But there it is. My views on drugs and alcohol.
I like to drink. A little vino, a little beer, a little Jack. Not at the same time. I don't use drugs. My views on alcohol and drug use basically comes down to whatever floats your boat.
However, it is the abuse of alcohol and drugs that bothers me. I am the daughter of a drug addict/alcoholic. My biological mom was a big user. To me, drug addicts and alcoholics are inherently selfish people, even while sober and clean. The world revolves around them, their problems, their emotions and their lack of ability to deal with them. Everything happens to them. This is, again, my own personal experience and is not to generalize a population of people with the disease.
I have no compassionate understanding for it. We all face troubles in our lives and we all make choices. Your choice to drown your troubles in your addiction, to use and abuse drugs is distinctly your choice. No one makes you do it. No one tells you you can't ask for help in other, healthy ways. No one pours the booze down your throat or puts the drugs into your system. You do that yourself. Nope, I have no compassion for this choice you make. While you're so busy drowning your troubles, everyone who loves you has to watch. And every time you do it, you hurt them. You neglect them. You destroy them the same as you destroy yourself. To me, it is always your choice. It's a choice you choose over the people who love you and want to help you. You choose yourself over them. And because this is the case, even after you are clean or sober or whatever, everything still revolves around your use, or your not use.
Maybe it's selfish of me to feel this way. And if it is, I guess I have some serious issues too. Maybe I'm just bitter. Maybe, because of my childhood, I still view this in a very childlike way. But there it is. My views on drugs and alcohol.
I'm interviewing at an Alcoholism and Drug rehabilitation facility today. I do not thing they are going to hire me.
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