Here's how it is. 2009 sucked. I mean, it really sucked for a lot of people. It's something like 10% unemployment, people are still being foreclosed on, homeless families are on the rise and the banks get more cash. Sorry to be such a downer....
2009 sucked for us in a different way. For those of you who know us, we lost a few good women out there this year. So we've been dealing with grief. A lot of grief. And not well, I might add.
I had a very hard time getting into the Christmas spirit this year. Partly because we were broke and didn't have presents under the tree until Christmas Eve. But also because I just couldn't get into it. I tried playing Christmas music, drinking hot chocolate, and going to look at Christmas lights with the kids. I almost got into it putting up the tree, but by the end of the evening I just wanted to say "whatever." We also attended several parties and went caroling with the Girl Scouts. But I still just couldn't get into it. Husband never even put up lights outside. And my holiday baking was less than stellar.
And so, Christmas 2009 came and went with a numb feeling. It makes me sad because I've spent most Christmases feeling super childish. This year just wasn't my year.
Two days before New Year's Eve I realized we were heading into a New Year. I mean, I knew the date and all, but it just hit me the significance of this shit ass year being over. I felt so relieved.
In my excitement I did something I never do: I made New Year's Resolutions. I never make them because I'm terrible with follow-through (just look at this blog - seriously) and I always think it's a terrible idea to set myself up for failure at the beginning of the year. So I skip the Resolutions. Not this year though. This year I made them because I was blinded by the shiny ball dropping in Times Square.
I've already broken most of them. It's okay though because it's 2010. It's not shitty 2009 anymore. I'll drink to that!
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